It would be great to have some of you accompany me to my son's hockey game. My hubby is away and my ex just picked up my oldest son and my daughter, will be bringing K to hockey, and staying to watch. No problem- K is so excited. His dad has never watched him in any activity ever. I have a chink in my armour of "we are all polite, respectful adults here" attitude as yet again, his wife sat in the jeep in the driveway and refused to come inside. That is her prerogative, but I am cheesed off about it right now because the kids totally notice. This time when their dad was trying to explain that she doesn't feel comfortable, I finally spoke up when it was just he and I in the room and mentioned that she was more than welcome and a lot of time had passed, so it was too bad there was still a problem. My sense of justice is offended as this is the woman who had an affair with my husband, but she won't talk to me or come into my house. (not that I said THAT outloud- that would be pointless). Anywho, enough about that. I know what I need to do- I am going to go open up The Word, as I want to be comfortable and enjoy the evening with everyone while at hockey. I want to have the courage to speak to her even if she does not respond, and to do it graciously and not get annoyed about it. This is not a big problem, she is a nice person who I think is quite insecure. She treats my children well- I just wish we leave the past in the past so I communicate with her better about my children. Oh well, there are much worse situations, but thanks for letting me bend your ear about it.
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Update- I am back- it was rather uneventful. She made herself very scarce, which I do think is a shame as it doesn't have to be this way. When she was out in the arena area, my ex would go sit with her somewhere else, and when she choose to sit in the waiting room or something (which was most of the time) he would come chat with our group. That must be a little stressful, but all went well. She walked past me once, but I was absorbed in disciplining my 5 year old, otherwise, I would have liked to have said "hi", to show that I was not in whatever head space she is in about the whole situation. I just want to move past this. It has been 9 years!!! Oh well, I guess the important thing is that the kid's dad and I can hang out and get along. It hasn't always been that way. For a long time I couldn't be anything but matter of fact and wooden around him. Thank you Jesus for showing me that we ALL deserve grace! Oh, by the way, I did what any mature 34 year old in need of moral support would do- I called my MOMMY! She and my dad came to watch with me!
If you could pray for my daughter while she is now away for a few days with her dad- she was anxious before she left about getting homesick- please pray for peace for her.
5 comments:
Ooooh GIRL!
You definitely have to be the bigger person (and Christian) here but it would be oh so tempting to be small, and sarcastic, and small and belittling and small. Did I mention small?
I pray God is gracious to you and helps you feel like doing the right thing.
I know sometimes we don't feel like it and we have to do it anyway, but it is so much easier to feel like doing the right thing.
I'll pray the wimps prayer for you (I pray it for myself more often than I'd like to admit!)
Lord, help Jane FEEL like doing the right thing! Help her to be the bigger person here. Help her to show her children and her X and his wife what true compassion (from You) looks like. Amen.
And I'd come sit beside you and give you moral support if there weren't ten or hundreds of miles between us.
I'd go. :-)
And you can't help it if SHE feels guilty. ... :-)
Oh, I wish I could sit with you!
You go, girl. Be the girl God wants you to be. You can't control her choices or her feelings. Just keep on being gracious.
Wish SOO much you didn't live so far away!!
This is the real-life grittiness of loving how Jesus loved. Amen to God for giving you this ability.
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Girl I am proud of you!
Do me a favor--next time she is out sitting in the driveway go on out and say Hi!
You know something like ---"you and I never seem to just get time to chat--next time you must come on in."
;) HA!
I don't know how I would respond in the same situation. But yes, I believe that after 9 years it would be time to just make nice.
I feel for you.
I will be praying for your young one. Julia does pretty good with not dealing with homesickness as long as she knows we are home. But if we are out of town and she is staying with someone--it happens every time.
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