Saturday, May 26, 2007
I am missing my 2 oldest this morning. They are at their dad's house about 6 hours away. They will be home on Wednesday or so, but when you are accustomed to having a them around all the time, it is kinda lonely without them, quieter, but not necessarily better. A, my daughter had a hard time going, fearing she would be homesick, K was happy to go as they have video games there and we don't. My ex is not an evil man, but we do have different opinions on what is appropriate supervision and entertainment. He, of course, thinks I am anal, and I think he is too permissive. We don't fight about stuff, but every once in a while I have to phone him and say, " This is what I am hearing and I am concerned about..." Mainly, I pray a lot and ask God's protection over them while they are away. I am so thankful that their ever present and loving Father is always with them. I told my daughter that I had no easy solution for her homesickness, but that this could be an opportunity for her to grow in her relationship with God and take Him at His Word when He tells her to "be anxious for nothing, but in everything, with prayer and petition, make your requests known to God". We talked about how she would have the responsibility to bring her fears to God, again and again if she needed to, in order to have some peace. I was pleased to have her tell me that she was doing so during a phone call, and after a few days, she is not experiencing that anxiety anymore. Thank you Jesus, I think that I would be a royal pain in the petutti (sp?) ex wife if I did not have Him to rely on when I am feeling anxious over not being able to protect my kids! Man, I would totally go teach a course in highschool about the long lasting effects of making stupid choices as a teenager/young adult- the problem is that we are all so smart at that age that no one would listen!!!
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6 comments:
I hear ya girl.
Only my mistakes didn't start till after I was married and in my late 20's.
Guess you go through that rebellion period at one time or another.
I know it must be hard to have them out from under your wings.
Like you said, it is a good thing you know thaey are under His.
You keep praying--God hears.
How cool that you can control what goes on in your ex.'s house and he does not even know it? :)
Your ex needs to be thankful that you run to Jesus and not him! You are doing great job!
And... I love it when I read the blogs of moms. I grew up in a Christian home, but it was not a live out loud atmosphere for Jesus. Through reading what you Christian moms are teaching your children of all ages, I am learning what I should have when I was a child.
I really needed your post today... thank you!
And we all have those mistakes that we wished we had not made...but truly they are why we are who we are today. They are reminders to why we know that we need Jesus, cause we really messed things up on our own.
Amen to that, Jane-Jane! I love your last line there Sharon- i will keep that in mind!
That would be so hard.
Putting your trust in the Lord is the only way to go. The other choice is to move with them where you could never be found again - but the kids would resent you for that.
Remember that a lot of people that LOVE LOVE LOVE the Lord grew up with absolutely ungodly influences - I was one of them. :)
My parents were divorced and I went to my dad's (not a Christian) one weekend a month. I was always ready to come back home, but I think in some ways, it benefited me... I adapt easily to change and I grew to be pretty independent.
It must be so difficult to send them off without you, to a home where you're not 100% ok with everything. Two of my dearest friends are doing that this week- one of them sending her two kids to the other side of the continent for six weeks to their dad who works all day and doesn't take any vacation time off when they are there. :( They, like you, are learning what it means to truly trust God for their kids. I'm going to stop right now and pray for you and for your kids. Remember that He loves them even more than you ever could.
i know how hard it is to have to let them go.. and i always use the verse.. perfect love casts out fear.. when we know that God is perfect love.. that He loves our children perfectly and wants the best for them even more than we do.. if we can grasp that.. we know we couldn't ask for better protection..
my prayers are with you.. :o)
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